Helper Application from Dawn

Member Name Dawn

Additional In Game Names: Peridawnyx Dawn_of_the_Moon Silverleaf2001

How old are you? 15

Location: St Louis Missouri

Do you have TeamSpeak? Yes

How many hours per day do you play MeepCraft? (weekdays) 2-5

How many hours per day do you play MeepCraft? (weekends) 3-7

Have you ever been staff on this or any other server? No

References: Please give IGN's NinjaRoxy, Peridonyx, ForteMizuki, Pepermint2939, Ladycassandra

When did you join Meepcraft? June 27th 2014

Introduction: My name is Alex and I live in St Louis Missouri. I really like a lot of things but lots of the things I’m heavily involved with are music, theatre, basically anything that’s the Arts. I play 3 instruments mainly. Flute, Oboe, and Alto Saxophone. Oboe is my instrument that I like the most though, I get lots of solo’s and as of recent I got the head solo for West Side Story and Set Fire to the Rain. I’ve moved a lot as well. From Liverpool to Owasso to St Louis this year. It’s been rough I know, but my life changed for the better meeting new people, new friends, and it’s been a great year so far!


Growing up I’ve been obsessed with Singing and theatre as well. It all started in 6th grade whenever I got the role of Kurt Von Tropp in The Sound of Music at Owasso Public. The role I can easily say changed my life, learning about the annexation of Austria and cruel treatment to other, at that time I was a pretty mean person, not a lot of people liked me because of my view on lots of stuff, but after that I learned nobody can be cruel to anyone, It’s not right. As of right now I haven’t really done a ton of theatre and I have a lot of time on my hand.


As far as my Meep life goes, I joined in 2014, I was Silverleaf2001 and at the time I was still pretty toxic, I trolled, I hurt people, and I did a lot of things that I wasn’t proud of. I stopped playing for a while, and I rejoined in late November of 2015. I was welcomed of course by our very own helper ForteMizuki, she was really sweet and she healed lots of past wounds and taught me what it was like to be a better person. I’ve met lots of new people that are so cool, For example: _Peridonyx_ , Ninja, Leah, and so many others. You guys are the best .


I started my first shop on Christmas break, it was small , and it was almost like starbucks, overpriced, and not worth the money. However, it was lots of fun to run. I met Queen, Silver, Peper, and Cat. IiTzJDL were a part of the thing as well. This really sparked my passion for the server. There were good people that really liked me.

Why should you be Helper? Empathy…. I have an uncle who has down syndrome, and he is amazing. Many people think that just because someone has something wrong with them they don’t count fully as a person, that just because they look different they are different. I don’t see things that way. People are people, and I know that nobody wants to be hurt, feel sad or anything negative. There are lots of things going on at school that I try and help with. As of recent there was a girl in my class who committed suicide. I was with the parents for a long time because I know how it feels to lose someone, my grandfather. My empathy skills have improved so much after the loss of him, and I believe I can use it for the better on meepcraft. I know how people feel on a lot of things because I’ve certainly been through a lot, therefore helping me connect more emotionally with the community




Kindness- Being kind to everyone is something you have to be, especially in order to be a helper. There are so many people who can try to get you down, but as my mother used to say “Kill them with kindness” and trust me I know I slip up, I’ve hurt people before. But haven’t we all? I know what it’s like to be kind, so many people have taught me, and I reflect their example’s as best as I can. I’m involved in a lot of activities at school, Band especially. I help people learn all the fingerings they need to excel in band. I also do after school tutoring for math, I’m a pretty good teacher. Kindness is key, which is something that i’m definite that I have. As Anne Frank once said “in spite of everything, I truly believe, that people really are good at heart” this describes my view on kindness. You can put me down, hurt me, but I will never, ever, stop being kind to you.



Helpfulness…

As I mentioned I do after school tutoring, I don’t charge, that would be kind of worthless. I’m a peer myself, if my classmates are struggling they need help. With MAP tests approaching rapidly, I’m tutoring most of my friends in math, science, and ELA. Most of them had C’s and B’s before I started and they are all at high B’s or A’s now. I excel at school, always have for some reason, I’m gifted, and I need to use that gift for others.


I help as much as possible on meep. If anyone needs a question answered I’m definitely there to lend a hand. I try to catch them as they come but sometimes I don’t see them. I’m a 2 year veteran and I’m very knowledgeable about the server. I know some valuable commands, almost all of them. While I don’t know everything, I certainly know a lot, that’s yet another thing that makes me believe I very capable of being a helper




Maturity.

When I first made my application I was very immature. I was told to work on this and I definitely have. I see things so differently these days, I’m not a child anymore. Sure I crack jokes, some of them immature, I use ;-; and <3 way too often, but I take things seriously. If there’s a job that needs doing, I’m more then willing to help with it. People crack jokes at me and say some pretty immature stuff, but I take it. I take it because I know that I don’t want to be a troll, and do bad hateful things to people. I’ve matured so much over the course of the 5 months I’ve been applying. And there’s one reason why I keep applying. It’s because I know I can take it. I can take anything you say, do it, and make whatever you told be to do look easy. Again, I can be immature but aren’t we all sometimes? I’m serious nowadays, and I’m different now, I’ve lost a lot of my aspects because I’ve changed a lot. But I know in my heart that I changed for the better, I’m a better, more loving person because I’ve become more mature. Sure, I did a meep marriage, but I think that that shows that we are really good friends, someone I can trust.

That doesn’t make me less mature than i am.



Taking Critisism.

I'm pretty good at this. I take everybody's views into consideration and I know what people are talking about whenever they say something. After years of taking this from my teacher I'm learning to take everything in, I've desensitized myself from brutal honesty or just brutal comments. Because I know what people are talking about, I know exactly what their purpose is, to help me! I was really emotional about the comments on my first app but I've gotten so much better at taking what I'm dished out, and unlike many candidates, making a change. I've heard lots of comments saying that “I'm fake” or “you aren't being yourself” I'll be honest and tell you flat out that I am. I made a change to improve upon myself, I changed for myself. And I'm pretty proud of how far I've come. I'm good at reflecting on myself.


Respect.

No. I do not “suck up” or “worship” staff members. I'm used to respecting authority and the staff are the higher authority here. I respect my teachers for what they do and I respect helpers for what they do, simple as that. They aren't the only people I respect. I respect all of my friends as equal as I respect anyone. Everyone is equal. That's how I like to be treated, with respect, I'm not a naïve child anymore, I know my place.




Determination.

I've got the drink and the drive to get things done. I've been determined to better myself, I believe I have. I keep reapplying because I know that I can handle this position, and all the stress it applies.


I've made it my personal effort to do good in school. I'm 2 years ahead of my freshman class in math and science. I have maintained a 4.0 gpa despite all the homework and stuff I have. I maintain a good playtime and study balance. My grades have not fallen below A’s in over 2 years. I'm suma-***-laude this year if my freshman class, along with my best friend for the girls. I have got determination. I'm determined to be a pharmacist. I'm determined to be a good person.

I'm determined to make meepcraft a great place.


Leadership

I'm a leader at heart most definitely. I get solos in band. I'm in national Jr honors society as community leader. I'm class president for the freshmans. So many people have encouraged me to be a leader Anne Frank, Martin Luther King Jr. Taylor swift. My mother. I'm capable of doing great work, I can be a leader. I am capable of being a leader and having a position in the staff team for it.



What I think I could bring to the team..

1.I'm a kind, empathetic person. Who takes everybody's views into account


2.I can dish out, and take in good criticism.


3.I'm not shy at all. If you are having trouble talk to me. I can help


4.I can lead a team to victory, as I have in the past.


5.I can be mature and collected when I need to be, but that doesn't make me less fun or playful.


6.I respect everyone, and don't judge anyone.


7.I'm determined to be the best person that I can be. I better myself so others can see. I change only for better, not for worse.


I think I'm definitely ready to take in this position and can be a worthy asset to the team

What are your weaknesses? Emotions

I struggle with this every day. I'm a very sensitive person, and I'm improving on this. After my grandpa died I realized I needed to be strong. I needed to be strong to honor him. However, it does get me down sometimes. When I'm preparing for a rough test, maybe I'm being bullied at school. I don't cry. I'm not a baby. But I so have feeling that can come loose like a hurricane. People are helping me move past it. My mom. Brother. Forte, Madison, Roxy, Window. Everyone. My emotions aren’t meant for sadness, they're meant for joy. To see the beauty in everything. I'm moving past it for sure, and I'm learning to love myself more every single day. As taylor swift once said. Shake it off . I know in my heart that I'm me and I can be who I want if I want.






Drama

I'm a very dramatic person, it's true. I'm into drama and I've played some serious parts, Peter van daan for example. I gossip way more then I should, it's rude and obviously immature. I used to think it's OK, but it's not. It's not because I know if I said it to their face it would hurt. And I can't do that. People are so much better than that and I should be like them too. I try not to be dramatic or release all my emotions upon people because that isn't fair for them, or other. I don't tell secrets though, that's just flat out wrong. If you tell me a secret. It means you trust me, I don't break trust. However, school drama gets me into a rush and a feel of importance, I don't love the drama, I hate it actually. But I do cause it accidentally. Just a warning.





Impulsive

I'm a rather impulsive person, I act on thought and don't really look at what I do and I make decisions quick. I have time to think about what I say or do. I've broken friendships with this. I've been mean to lots of people. I used to be such good friend with pmx until I hurt him. Im such a hothead it's unbearable. I feel so terrible about everyone I've hurt. It's not just pmx. I can't tell you how many people I've shut down, said evil things too, or been unbearable with. I make my decisions fast, like I'll think a store is a good idea then I forget about it and realize it wasnt a good idea after all. Or maybe I type a joke in chat and after all it was a bad idea. I need to take more time before I put these into actions. Maybe introspect some more, and definitely take some time to think.


Trust in friends.

Lots of you have seen, I'm really close to my friends, not to say I would be bias and not answer a modreq unjustly. But I do have faith in my friends. I don't usually expect my friends to do something and get banned. But it happens, we’re all humans. But it would be so sad for me to see myself ban a close friend of mine that I've known for a while.


Confusion.


I'm easily confused, especially if it's in long words that I don't know exactly. I get confused with some commands and forget some rules and I have to go over the meep rules to make sure I've got it right. If you tell me something and I don't understand I might act like I know and do it wrong or screw it up. It makes me upset whenever I have to ask 4-9 times if I did something right. Or a what did you say? But I need to understand I need to ask questions to become a good helper.

Please give any other information you might think is useful for us to know: If you have any questions about anything on this application /msg me in game. I don’t bite . Thanks so much for reading my application, it means a lot! Have a great day/night and i hope to see you in game.


Please msg me in game if you have anything you'd like me to work on or definitely improve. I want to be the best helper that all of the community wants to be, after all I'm applying on behalf of you guys. You all continue to make my life that much more interesting! Have a wonderful day/night and thanks for reading this!
You guys are the bomb.com! Again thanks, I hope to see you in game.

 

Suma-cume-Laude* for those wondering

 

+1 Kind
+1 Helpful

Overall Good!

 

+1 you nailed the things you need to work on honestly and directly.

 

-1
~untrustworthy: you have been acting really fake ever since you got vip
~dependent : you have trouble making decisions on your own
~Emotional: you like to stir up drama that is not needed
~annoying: it's really annoying when you sing in ts
~commands: idk if you have learned more, but last time I checked you weren't very good with towny commands
~Kiss up: you have been very fake for a while now, considering you were really cool and fun when you were a cit.
~You use people: today you tried making up with me and acted all nice just because you knew I would give you a bad comment. Plus you told me you weren't applying for a while.
~immature: this stupid marrying thing you take way to seriously.
~not helpful

Anyways I like you dawn, but you to just act like yourself. Plus I believe there are lots of things you need to work on before becoming a helper.

 

Hiya pmx! You left some great stuff to work on but I want to highlight something.

I did not in any way use you. Pmx ever since I was a vip you stopped talking to me. And I really like you. Today I wanted to check in and see if we were still friends and I wanted to reconcile with you. Your a really cool dude and im happy what we've been having is over.

Secondly you say I kiss up and I'm not fun anymore. When I was a citizen I was really mean, and not a ton of people liked me, for some reason, after meeting grevius and klitch, they both saw me different and I changed as a person, I'm not being fake, I happen to have a lot of staff friends. I'm being myself, and I changed for myself. As I highlighted In my app. After my grandpa died I wanted to follow his example, and be a better, more serious person

Otherwise thanks! It was some good stuff

 

+1
you are a very nice person(i wish you asked me to be a reference!!!)
that's pretty much it from me i've given reasons in other places i don't feel like listing them agai

 

+/- Eh...

You are such a nice friend and all but I feel like you just keep trying and trying like a broken record. I mean that isn't saying that you aren't allowed to, just that, it doesn't really look good. You can also be quite immature at some times, (Some times not all) and also lacking a litle helpfullness every now and then.

Also, please don't put lots of spaces in your application to make it look long, or whatever

Make me change me vote
- Spongey!

 

The spaces. I made this in a doc so ya it looks super long. Thanks

 

I have to agree with this.

Ever since I met you, and yes I remember the first time I met you, you have been so fake, unpleasant, and very competitive (not sure if I used that right). You like to express that you're sure of yourself and never like to back down (even if you're blatantly wrong). You can try to deny that you don't kiss up to staff, but I can't tell you how many times I've seen it. Honestly, here's what I think: you have so many imperfections that you try to be good at everything. Go with what everyone is saying! Be yourself. You need to stop trying to be someone you're not and never going to be. Give it a good two - three months and apply again. Until you take heed of my advice, I'm going to be a permanent -1. Best of luck to you in all of life.

 

You contacted me, and like pmx I feel like you just contacted me because you knew that I'd leave a bad comment on your application.

Here's what bothers me about your app: In every paragraph of your strength section you mention that it doesn't always apply. "Sure, I'm immature sometimes" "Sure, I slip up sometimes". It bothers me because of the amount of times you mention it, and it makes me feel that we're gonna have a problem with you "slipping up" quite a few times.

You still gossip. And it's annoying. Joining team speak I don't want to hear you talking about people, and for a staff member I'd find this unacceptable.

And you're still immature. You say you aren't. You say in your app how you turned serious after a family member died. Here's the thing though, I can't see you chatting for even a few minutes without seeing the OMG's and the LOL's and the <3!!!'s.

I may add more in the future.
-1

 

Sorry, Dawn, but you haven't improved at all since your last helper application.

The reason for that is because you don't ever bother in seeking ways on how to be more mature. I always find posts from you on other profiles that aren't really immature. You sent me a post saying "profile pic on point". I'm not saying that's a bad thing, but you just never really improve.

You suggested a marriage plug-in, because you are basically in love with role-playing. If you want to role-play, you can do it on Facebook or Google+. Whenever there are role-players here on the server that act serious in what their role is, it makes me cringe. There's another reason why you're so immature.

If I'm not mistaken, you've also been a pretty big kiss-up. Not going to go into detail on that.

You still gossip, too. I've also heard that you love to sing in TS. If you want to sing, go to the music channel or just turn off your microphone so no one can hear you. TS isn't a concert to "perform" at. Trust me, I attempted to sing one of the opening songs from League of Legends, and it failed horribly.

-1

 

To be honest you'll do better than some of the staff we got now. As long as you learn the ropes and swings. +1

 

Hey Dawn, from what I have seen on the forums and in game, you seem like a wonderful person but you do have a fair amount of weaknesses (yes I know, we all do) and I have seen moments where you can be a tad bit immature. Keep working on mastering your weaknesses and keep helping out the community and be active on forums and I'll give you a +1 but at the moment I have to give you a +0.5. Good luck and keep improving

 

-1 for these reasons above.

 

+1 +1 +1

*active
*Helpful
*Great app
*Nice

 

Dawn, I haven't seen any improvement from your previous applications. Like @Kling pointed out, your weaknesses are pretty serious, and I haven't seen you work on them. You're making it seem like it'll be alright to give you staff and then have you make so many mistakes. Wouldn't you rather be stable and mature enough to be staff rather than being demoted? I don't see you being professional at all, and I just feel you aren't stable enough to do the job. Also, yesterday you were making very immature comments and talking about your application and global. If you would like to talk about your application, do it in a private message instead of letting the entire server know you're applying for helper. Also, try to stop and think before you click the enter key. You really have to be careful with what you're saying, or else you're chances for helper will be very slim. If you really want helper, you need to put less work into your application and more work in improving your skills and qualities.

-1

 

Dawn, you're a very enthusiastic person and you are also a very nice guy to be around. I really like talking to you because the conversation doesn't just die all of the sudden.

I think that your hours online are good and you're active on the server, forums and team speak. Although, i do know some people that doesn't want to be in the same channel as you on team speak. It's because of all the gossiping and so on and it kind of bothers me aswell. (although i do not mind being in the same channel as you.)
Forums, you're pretty active and you participate with your opinions and that's great! Even though you have matured a tiny bit, i still see no improvements regarding the messages you post on other peoples profiles (since your last application.)
In-game, you're chatty whenever you are online and you participate in Gobal chat, which is good. But i still see your immature messages and once in a while i still see some on-the-edge bad language from you. I told you to work on this and it's gotten better but you just have to stop completly (at least with the bad language.) seeing a staff member use foul language makes people think that's what the rest of the server is like aswell.
You show some sort of helpfulness, i guess? I would really like to see you help more, because, now you're not very helpful and i know you have the knowlegde to help out more.

-1, i need to see you improve on a lot of stuff, i just do not think you're ready yet. Good luck!

 

I was not gonna leave either a + or a - on this one until you contacted me just before your application was posted.
You said you were gonna apply and stuff and I suggested that you wait a little longer as in my opinion I've seen little improvement and certainly not enough.
You completely brushed me off. And that kind of annoyed me I'll admit.
[4/14/2016 5:41:39 PM] Alexia Leach: And either way I don't think you've improved
[4/14/2016 6:10:40 PM] Dawn: I think I've improved a lot on what they told me.
[4/14/2016 6:10:45 PM] Dawn: Especially emotions
You did nothing to ask me about it, you did nothing about it at all.
What you said makes me feel that you're almost arrogant about it. Yes, it's important to stay confident, but when you're overly confident is a bad thing.

I don't know. You know your way around the server to my understanding and you're an alright person in the public eyes. Once you start bumping into your private chats and when you're on an immature spree is when people start having problems.
Currently a -1. You still need more work. You need to wait longer and work harder.

If it helps, I went through the same thing and I've been working on my issues for 4 and a half months now and I've posted so many apps lol. Keep the head high, wait longer to apply again.

 

Despite what the others are saying I've never seen you being immature apart from the meep marriage thing but that isn't immaturity in the means if would affect staff it's just fun! When I first met you I didn't like you. I don't even remember why I didn't. But I talk to you in teamspeak often now and you don't seem at all bad. You are helpful and sweet and if you worked on everything mentioned in other comments you will be great!