etha_lightflame

Hi my name is Ethan I don't mind being called Etha thou in game You will usually see me around Meepcraft just being random and "original",(When I say original I don't know if I am being sarcastic or not.)
I am was 16 when i wrote this and am 20 now and live in British Columbia Canada, I was born in Newfoundland
located in the East coast along with my two older Brothers that I am ashamed to be related to considering what bad people they have became, (T******) the oldest wasn't adopted after he was deemed unsafe to be around well on the other hand my brother and I were ok and were adopted I was two with my siblings two and four years older then me. My brother (k***) lived with me until (2012?) after lashing out and attacking me and my grandma along with threatening to kill me. I was forced to call the police needing them to come to our house. because of my brother I was never popular & thats fine ,but what what always bugged me is wherever I went. I always became the victim for bullying no matter where I was, People hated me because I didn't fit in to the point that even adults would run by our house because they didn't want me to see them and have me come outside and say hello. sept 2013 my family & I moved away to a more peaceful home in the country away from everything. when I finally entered grade 7-8 was when all my life got better etc. And just know I don't want people to msg me I am so sorry about your childhood because that was my life and It made me who I am today, someone who can face life and help others with theirs. and even if my life has affected me and I hate myself. I know I can wake up everyday and tell myself that there is always a tomorrow ahead.
And to be completely honest the whole time that I suffered I never ever thought about suicide because I always knew that death wouldn't solve any of my problems ,it would never actually end my suffering ,it would only pass it on to those who cared about me so I decided that I would always live with a smile even when I was pushed over my limit and I stopped smiling and for a while even feeling what people said to me I never gave up I just kept going about my life. If someone doesn't want to be my friend and they would rather be my enemy then good for them its their loss and if they feel like they are winning in reality they aren't dragging me down with them because I am never going to seep down to or be drug down to their level. Everyone has their secrets and Sins.

LifeAdvice: death is never the answer for it solves nothing it only passes on your sadness to someone else and leaves the one accountable with regret & don't assume the world is out to get you because there is always someone out there who has it worse and who would trade almost anything to walk in your shoes.

(Puella Magi Madoka Magica)"- Don't forget. Always, Somewhere, someone is fighting for you. -As long as you remember that, you are not alone."

Ps. Sorry If this is not well edited I am trying to improve. Ethan Hookey