I gotta apologize

Hello, first let me get this out of the way, many of you may claim this thread is an attention/pity speaking thread. Well it's not, I want to show to people and prove to myself that I am aware. Several people have advised against me making this thread, but I won't be satisfied until I make this thread.

It pobably started 2-3 months ago. I slowly became more immature nonconstructive and according to @HazTheMan99 a "nonce" One of my biggest goals on meepcraft was to be a role model provide a good time and further grow and contribute to the community.

At first they were just sarcastic things on threads. Then I made a troll report, and then I made a troll suggestion, it didn't seem that bad to me until I realized I was wasting peoples time. I stopped making those threads but still I kept making comments and doing just annoying things.

About 2-3 weeks ago I started to notice here and there certain parts of the community being biased and a little upset with me. Thought maybe I was just being sensitive or they had a bad day. And I kept doing that until I decided it's time so stop blaming others for my wrongful actions and taking responsibility. And I did I tried to clean up my act be more friendly, not leave negative thoughts and so on.

Then it all came crashing down. 2 words.

Trolling video

This by far has been my biggest mistake on meepcraft (other than scamming 200k back in 2013) and I am still receiving harsh criticism and other thoughts about this video. It seems as everyday I need to apologize, which I rightfully do. This whole experience has come crashing down on me, possibly ruined my chance at EVER being media. I really have learned to never repeat or take part in anything like this again. I really do apologize from the bottom of my heart, to the staff members involved costebrine and the community. As of now the trolling video is down.

So here I am it's 8:17pm on a Monday night typing what ever comes into my mind from my heart. Not sure whether this thread will bring me down more or help mend the stitching I tore in the community.


-fasehed

--- Double Post Merged, May 2, 2016, Original Post Date: May 2, 2016 ---

I also will be apologizing to several people I have affected in game.

 

Lol speaking of costebrine, I pretended to be a girl and he sent me really weird /msg. Also paid me 10k

 

Interesting.

 

TBH // Pretty nice guy in general, maybe a little immature at times. I think of you as a friend, and I would accept your apology. Rate: 7/10

 

This form of apology isn't exactly the correct way to go about this. I understand what was meant by this thread, and it reminds me of something I would've done a year ago. I don't see immaturity as a bad thing necessarily, but it is important If you want to create strong, healthy, and firm relationships out of mutual respect. I realized this very late, I used to think that you made friends with people by being nice to them. And still, my immaturity is still there. Being soft and gentle is genetic in my family, so no it's not because i'm Canadian! See? that was some immaturity right there. I am still trying to fix up my rep, with some ups and downs of course. But I am trying to fix it by posting wise and insightful content, even though my content can be way off topic. I keep coming back to Meepcraft to see if I can learn something, anything at all. I haven't found much of what I am looking for yet, but I still try. Don't get down on yourself, it's unhealthy.

 

Thanks man

Thanks for the advice, will make sure to use it in both meepcraft and real life